i hate myself

These few days have been a rough one for me currently missing him :[
i have no idea what the hell happened to her she's ... changed
had volley ball today at CCAB

the place sucks canns ! no air-con OR fan AT ALL !
sweat like siao luhhs than did some of the normal stuff like setting
blah YAY! set with adel jie
FINALLY !

soo long never do setting with her alr lor but just when i wanna da fang
with alex jonathan blow whistle than ...
cannot da fang alr
TT
haiz ... anyway today quite fun
GUN DI !! sucked lor i just can't seem to do any thing right alwys left derh
but still fun ~

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCH TO RE-OPEN !
than today when we reached sch i was like shocked why suddenly so many
people there than found out it was UG camp or smth like that ?
yeah ... than saw miss chin
said HII of course yepps [;

OH YAH !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ANG ! [;
and thanks for giving me back my volley ball even though you're not suppose
to i think
but many thanks[;
-CIAO-

i seriously hate myself

why can't i do things properly ?

why do i have to keep

disappointing _____ ?

i just want it all to pass quickly

i'm tired ... i don't know how

long more am i able to hold on